wah. seem like my blog is dead. just cas i went to hospital...

i cant believe that tiffany , caiying(darling), felicia(baobei) change so much since i'm not around

and i discover that the song i like tiffany also like. i didnt notice till i see her blog..

i've been thinking whether i have true friends? cas i cant see i've . except my baobeii jie jie for 3 years? the rest i don know. cas maybe is my fault for not telling them. but i don wan tell them. cas more and more people will know then i go back i will have to asnwer to more people . then is very tiring for me . i don know . maybe friend like that is enough. baobei not my sister anymore.
also broke quite alot of my promise. since she don treasure wad for i care about her life. wad she wan do let her do lor. i say my piece le. hope she be careful with her friend lor. cas her outside friend is more important ma. nevermind it doesent concern me. darling i ju don know. up to her lor. but i think she also don wan be sister . forget it lor. don wan ju don wan. i don wan care .

Alot of things run through my mind , when i'm having chemo, transplant, blood transfer.. ya is not pain. but is tiring. sometimes is pain but bearable.. cas after every pain there's something more pain waiting for you. Hahas. sound funny? it doesnt seem so. i always think why i started smoking but i cant find the reason. there's a time i have to put something into my body they ask me did i smoke, is a lady doctor i told her yes. she ask drink i told her yes. she ask me i'm just 15 . how can i smoke . i don know how to answer her. it seem quite hard to answer her. so i just smile at her and didnt say a word. she quite annoying . but lucky only for that 2day i need to see her. maybe wad i gone through not everyone can go through. so i don mind. cas i'm not the one only suffering so much. there is much people suffer more than me but cant cure. so i'm very happy that i can live till now. ha..

wah . i'm going home. and my two ex the two i truly love them once . they're happily attached . i'm so happy for them. they will be very happy . cas my memories for them really bad. eventhough they don say . but i just don do a girlfr job before. so i hope this two girl will make them feel love and happiness and they surely will do that.

i hope tiffany can more guai . stayy at home more often. attitude change. forget him and get to another better guy. eventhough i'm finding but is very hard . but i hope tiffany can change. really hope this will come true.
and hope i wont have relapse. everything will go smoothly. jiayou~!

and jie jie more happy and healthy. nothing le.