Friday, August 21, 2009
today. sigh.... 630 am wake up.
mummy cook porridge for me. not bad wor.
heehees. on our way to hospital there was car accident. traffic jam lor. lucky papa never late.. we were early again. waited for half an hour. mummy bought milo and french toast for me. she also bought coffee and egg french toast for herself.. we are the first customer again..today will be a busy day for those nurses.. poor thing.. same bed again.. today do (FBC - take blood from my hand) three small tube. numbness le that nurse weird weird de lor. choose this finger choose that finger. aiiy0. don care. then evelyn jiejie ju come see my wound. oh my goodness skin tear again ahhhhhh~ help .. she say must clean. no choice. pain pain.. she clean very gently. when she put the medicine. tear jiitao flow down.. mummy ju say don look. look other place think other thiing. that wad i can do.. cas only me at there.. scream too loud very paiseh nehhs.. then she ju clean clean .. but before that i was laughing.. but straight after laughing ju criied.. so weird nor..
then ju when orhorh.. mummy say i snore very loud.. no choice.. really never get to sleep well at home.. cas of those medicine.. so many nurse jie jie so kind.. make wo smile before my medicine was put on.. they all say th wound really very bad lor.. my skin too dry le.. haiis..
don know how to make my skin better.. skin keep tear.. haiis.. monday need see doctor again.. today also dripp magnisum.. magnisum was too low.. red blood cell haven really grow.. now then i know my body is weaker than an infant.. i tot i was abit stronger than an infant.. that wad mummy say lor.. sigh.. don dare to anyhow eat.. only can think of it.. Priscilla jie jie bought me a hat.. quite nice.. with heart heart de.. very bright..but actually is suitable for 7-12 de.. but i wear they say not bad.. haha.. i'm like a kid now . today drip till 3plus 4 pm .. waited for papa around 2 hour plus.. jusst to save the cab fare.. then mummy can buy food then cook for me to eat.. haha.. mummy wanna buy double decker.. but all so expensiive.. still see see look look.. but some expensive also not nice de.. actually money not important but must be good de lor.. that wad mummy always say.. as long as is good ju can le.. heehee.today went kopitiam.. haha. so happy.. but alot of people look at me. cas i was wearing a hat with a mask and long sleeve.. haiis. their look make me very sad.. i was so scared lor.. but never mind at leaast i get to go down with my real blood sister. we went to buy western and titbit for tonight.. medicine haiis.. keep think of that ju head pain.. really have to save money lor.. still got a long way to go before i get well.. waiting for 100 day to be over . i ju can go out le.. but not alot of people de place nor.. also not sure after the 100 day ju can go out mah.. must get permission from doctor first.. iif not hor.. ju die die liao.. and hor miss my baobeii jie jie so much.. and my ah gong .. waiting to go eat with hiim.. today de mood also weird weird de leiis.. don know how to say .. just weird weird de nor.. hope my pain will go off fast fast .. at hospital see those younger than me de suffering.. they so poor thing lor.. haiis. so my wound is nothing. they suffer de more than me.. eventhough when they grow up they ju no feeling le.. but so young ju have to suffer so much. i wonder why lor.. heehees.. mature thinking hor? hahaha..
always about to give up.. things will pop up to make me not to give up.. just like promise cant be broken. today call ah ma , she didnt know i was discharge.. she wanted to visit me. but she cant. cas i cant have visitor now yet. she ask me to takecare. her love was so much that is hard to say type out in words. she like want to cook thing for me. but she didnt say anything. wah.. so much love and encouragement. why i have to give up. plus my so called godmother(doctor tan) she was my doctor for three year, eventhough always heard her saying bmt one year by one year. and finally now is done. she really very care and love her patient.
she say that my bmt is really good . don have to dripp to many medicine . heehees. so happy to hear that. and her encourgment and sayang on my head whenever she see me. haha.. so weird ..
now my face is like so fat with no hair . cheek so chubby like two cheese tofu . cas of the medicine. i really don like those look people gave me. haiis. this is nothing de.. jiayou!! sharon got to end here le.. lonqq lonqq de post ba.. haha.. love ya readers.
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to aiai. don worry.. i wiill go on de.. i wont give up de..loveya.
to mavis.
i also miss you alot.. sorry about not replying your text. hope to see you soon. love ya
Thursday, August 20, 2009
today should talk abt wad i also don know..
today was really boring.. intend to go play badminton to make my hand more strength.. and make my leg move more.. it seem to be weaker alot.. tomorrow going hospital again.. oh my gooness. don know wad time coming back home again.. haiis. suffer tomorrow???
no idea at all. medicine is really making me sick.. going crazy.. hand trembling.. stomach bloated.. just cause the stupiid medicine make me become like this.. hand starting to grow .. don know got grow ma lehhs.. but i feel it grow a few le.. jialing very poor thing .. she everything also don know.. then todayy talk with me.. chat chat awhile ju stopped le..
very worry for jie jie.. haiis.. michelle always call her go out.. scared she tiired.. plus 7month le..
hope jie jie will know when she tiired she has to go home early lor..
tiffany also quite guai .. got stay at home.. but she come home not sleep ju shi don know do wad..
so sad no one pei me do excercise..
feeling that my appetite don know like lost le.. not everything also wan eat le.. i scared i suddenly don wan eat thing.. drink milk only lehhs.. i don know.. scared this scared that.. don know still got the strength to carry on mah.. but promise jie jie will take care. also promise jurong mummy will take care.. promise so many people will take care.. so streess.... mummy also cook so much.. i don know how to say thank also.. plus cab fare. food. all need money.. haiis.. how i wish i can go work..
ALL need money.. hospittal bill. ahhh.. everything driving me crazy.. wad should i do..??
ii still got so much to suffer. don know when is my physotherapy.. seem like i'm going to die liao..
ahhhhhhhhhhh~ head pain...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
wah.. cannot sleep well last night.. keep wake upp. cas of the stupiid wound.. so painful lor...
haiis.. then 4 plus wake up as usually go toilet.. really didnt get to sleep well recently..
sleep wake up sleep wake up. then mummy overslept again 630 then wake up.. never cook again..
go hospital eat lor. go hospital drink milo .. and eat 2 slices of egg bread.. mummy scared nurse see.. ju eat quite fast.. kana scold in the morning cas i lock the door then everyone wait for the toilet.. oppsy.. haha.. then ju say sorry lor. but lucky never traffic jam.. reach hospital early again.. ju wait around half and hour.. oh my goodness .. then go flushing for the hickman line.. then i ju tell nurse got red wound.. then she say okay.. hope she will forget.. after flushing ju take blood.. tot can go home le, but canno0t.. suddenly say need see doctor.. wth~ okay then ju wait.. never eeeat 8am de medcicine.. haha.. purposely didnt eat.. then i ju sleep at the bed there as to wait for the doctor..
wahh.. 10plus le.. still haven get to see the doctor.. continue sleep.. finally get to see doctor. woohoo.. can go home lor.. okay then go off.. haha.. escape from the wound suffering.. haha.. mummy rmb , plus i told her the nurse clean de hua very pain.. then she say okay.. ju ignore le.. go home after seeing doctor.. make payment .. wait for 10min.. go take taxi.. half way down the road.. stupid idiot bastard.... have tto go back hospital.. ahhhh~ cas my magnesium.. damn damn super low.. drip for two hour.. then reach hospital ju eat the expensive stupiid medicine first..
then after one hour ju eat hotdog bread .. cas really too hungry.. like pregnant like that.. sleep through the drip cas i don wan pain paain.. then ask mummy go eat lor.. later she hungry.. ask her to buy bread only.. gang gang hao.. when she back i can eat my bread lke.. heehees.. after two hour.. mummy ju really scared the wound.. she ju ask can she bring back some yellow medicine from the nurse. mummy ju tell the nurse lor.. haiis.. pain pain... tear flow down.. when she put the medicine.. quite serious lor.. then she help me clean the wound.. also change the dressing.. pain ah.. clean finish le.. more pain.. but didnt maake my tear flow.. bear with it.. haiis.. finally can go home.. increase stupiid medicine.. hungry .. take cab home.. haiis.... home sweet home... my kor kor fever .. so have to stay at mummy room the rest of the day.. safer... pain never go off.. veryy pekk cheii lor.haiis..
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
my life is so boring lor.. i cannot eat cheese fries. my mcwing. so siian..
i only can eat wad my mother cook. heehees. but alread very lucky le.. if not i'm going to die..
haiis.. i cannot do anything also.. cannot go down.. haiis. i wan bored to death le. my hand also been shaking .. having diffculties eating. mummy also very xinku .. everyday must feed me eat medicine.. my wound is killing me. is pain .. i wanna cry . but have to bear with it.. if not mummy wash the wound i ju jialut.. hope wont be pain after tonight.. is killing me.. and tmr going to hospital again. cas got to take blood. haiis.. i feeling tiired.. i don know wad i should do to make myself carry on. i don know. i hao lei ah. bloated stomach. woound tear cas i think the nurse clean too hard.. red red.. got water.. ahhhhhhh~
i cry de hua, mummy ju don know wad to do. i don know whether i can bear with the pain tmr. i'm getting afraid. getting scared easily. i cant let it become infeected. tmr get my blood. not enough de hua ju yao transfusion blood. hope everything go well. hope blood is enough .. i don wan face white white lehhs. i got so much to say. but i don know how to say.. i already come so far. can i make it till everything is done.? if i don jiayou, people around me ju worry. then more worse. nag will start. ahhhhh~ wad should i do. chemo , bmt , vomit. everything already also gone through. can i make it?? i been asking myself. but i cant get the answer... i don wan cry.. it make people around me see me suffer , i ju wan give up.. cas i don wan see them sad sad.. haiis.. i doon know..
this cannot that also cannot.
is my life hard? no. i don know wad i should do nehhs. smiling can i do it???????
so many care so many hope. haiiy0.. walk one step by one step..
hope everyone will be guai guai.. nothing happen to them. study hard.
end here.
today 6 30am wake up.. then change .. then off to hospital.. wahh lucky traffic wasnt heavy..
if not ju jialut for papa le.. we reach hospital around 7 plus .. if i not wrong lor.. reach there early but cannot go in first cas it start at 8am.. then we wwait lor.. so long.. do nothing..
then 8 le .. have to go up. but i say wait awhile longer. when me and mummy go up there already got some patient le. but we were the first to reach become in patient. haha.. tot will end early..
but it didnt. oh my goodness .. i 6plus at night then go home.. mummy was angry lor.. don know why.. baby like very poor thing.. cas silin and tiffany when downstair see doctor.. then i hao xin tell silin.. i didnt know baby told them too.. then silin come back ju say mummy and papa quarrell. i also don know anything.. i just hao xin warn them.. silin come back ju say so loud.. make me kana .. then i ju give silin face plus say her make me kana say by mummy.. then she ju scold me.. wah.. then cry lor.. silin ju shout say cry wad cry.. like everything my fault.. haiis. nevermind...then my wound also very pain .. haiis.. cry again lor.. keep crying today.. so sian..
hope everything will not be pain anymore.. don make me cannot take it and give up~
endd here le....
bye..
Saturday, August 15, 2009
wah. finally discharge. but reach home le . still the same as hospital. 5 ju automatically wake up.
cannot sleep well. don know wad to do.. then ju watch tv . go in and out of the room.
so fan... yesterday tell jie jie i discharge she so happy lor. aiiyo .. lucky got this jie jie to make my day. she like sot sot de. so happy. haha.. i gott no more good gan le. but alot of people still care for me. mayb i don know barrhs. but i cant see their concern lehhs. but nevermind. got jie jie ju enough le. and of cos i get back my family member. having good relationship with them now.
hope my illness will go smoothly. now my body still quite weak so got to take care well well. i scared is not enough blood then must go back hospital drip blood. so scary nor. water i will drink. but blood cannot drink marhhs. so very scared thing will happen. hope everything will go smoothl yy. wah medicine hor. say till this ... oh my goodness so many can. still must remind my blur blur de mommy to make medicine for me. but hope she will xi guan with those medicine then wont be so blur le. hope monday go back can make less the medicine . but don think so lor cas i just reach home .
tiffany ju jialut .. don know how to say her le.. she change till quite bad.. hope she change for the better .. if not don know how to control le.. just hope she more guai .. stay at home more..
wah.. yesterday talk to darling. she will only be my darling not sister anymore. haiis lose so much things.. hao nan xi guan oh.. nevermind. i will just let them go.. baobei more and more don know how to say le.. so worry for them.. don know should ask them come my house downstair talk ma... cas i really quite worry for them.. i'm very scared they don know how to think before they do things. haiis .. so sad .. so much worry.. i also cannot be too sad .. if not my doctor will know.. sshe always see my blood count ju know le.. haiis.. cannot too sad.. have to smile.. but i very sad ... ii feel that jie jie so sad.. so worry for her also.. haiis.. why cant let me be the one to suffer more.. i don wan my gan or friend to sad.. since i alread suffer so much.. suffer alittle more for them also wont die till where de mahh.. haiiy0 .. so fan nahh.. hope everything will go happyily lor..
endd here le..
Sunday, August 9, 2009
wah. seem like my blog is dead. just cas i went to hospital...
i cant believe that tiffany , caiying(darling), felicia(baobei) change so much since i'm not around
and i discover that the song i like tiffany also like. i didnt notice till i see her blog..
i've been thinking whether i have true friends? cas i cant see i've . except my baobeii jie jie for 3 years? the rest i don know. cas maybe is my fault for not telling them. but i don wan tell them. cas more and more people will know then i go back i will have to asnwer to more people . then is very tiring for me . i don know . maybe friend like that is enough. baobei not my sister anymore.
also broke quite alot of my promise. since she don treasure wad for i care about her life. wad she wan do let her do lor. i say my piece le. hope she be careful with her friend lor. cas her outside friend is more important ma. nevermind it doesent concern me. darling i ju don know. up to her lor. but i think she also don wan be sister . forget it lor. don wan ju don wan. i don wan care .
also broke quite alot of my promise. since she don treasure wad for i care about her life. wad she wan do let her do lor. i say my piece le. hope she be careful with her friend lor. cas her outside friend is more important ma. nevermind it doesent concern me. darling i ju don know. up to her lor. but i think she also don wan be sister . forget it lor. don wan ju don wan. i don wan care .
Alot of things run through my mind , when i'm having chemo, transplant, blood transfer.. ya is not pain. but is tiring. sometimes is pain but bearable.. cas after every pain there's something more pain waiting for you. Hahas. sound funny? it doesnt seem so. i always think why i started smoking but i cant find the reason. there's a time i have to put something into my body they ask me did i smoke, is a lady doctor i told her yes. she ask drink i told her yes. she ask me i'm just 15 . how can i smoke . i don know how to answer her. it seem quite hard to answer her. so i just smile at her and didnt say a word. she quite annoying . but lucky only for that 2day i need to see her. maybe wad i gone through not everyone can go through. so i don mind. cas i'm not the one only suffering so much. there is much people suffer more than me but cant cure. so i'm very happy that i can live till now. ha..
wah . i'm going home. and my two ex the two i truly love them once . they're happily attached . i'm so happy for them. they will be very happy . cas my memories for them really bad. eventhough they don say . but i just don do a girlfr job before. so i hope this two girl will make them feel love and happiness and they surely will do that.
i hope tiffany can more guai . stayy at home more often. attitude change. forget him and get to another better guy. eventhough i'm finding but is very hard . but i hope tiffany can change. really hope this will come true.
and hope i wont have relapse. everything will go smoothly. jiayou~!
and jie jie more happy and healthy. nothing le.
wah . i'm going home. and my two ex the two i truly love them once . they're happily attached . i'm so happy for them. they will be very happy . cas my memories for them really bad. eventhough they don say . but i just don do a girlfr job before. so i hope this two girl will make them feel love and happiness and they surely will do that.
i hope tiffany can more guai . stayy at home more often. attitude change. forget him and get to another better guy. eventhough i'm finding but is very hard . but i hope tiffany can change. really hope this will come true.
and hope i wont have relapse. everything will go smoothly. jiayou~!
and jie jie more happy and healthy. nothing le.
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