Sunday, May 31, 2009
i don't know wad happen to me.. when you've left,
my life is starting to overflow by my blood &tears. how can i survive without you. dont go away. is too late le.. eventhough i wish to say to you. but i don wan..
i triied to control everything i wanted. and i really really
don know wad i should do.. cause now i've no one to say .
it really feel so lonely.. but is now is nothing to me..
cause i sick&tired.. my problem maybe is a small problem towards those
who left a few days to live in this world.. but this are still my problem.
but never contact with you is a hard thing. but i know stop online and evrything avoid you is
the best choice barhs. this is wad i can do. i don wish to wish you with something that i don
want to. if a few years later we still remeber each other. maybe my feeling are still there.
i hope ....
i'm so sux!
i've no right to counselling people. and giving people advice.
maybe you guys think that i'm okay..
but actually i'm not so good..
people say i have self esteem. but so wad.
my character and something are hard to change.
i've no rights to talk so much.. everything now on my face are something i pretend out.
Friday, May 29, 2009
haish.. people have their problem. i've mine too.
emm.. i don feel like living in this home..
the feeling are weird not like last time we are small..
everyone now have their things to do.
i really enjoy last time.. when we have shopping at giant . at tampanies..
it was late night.. and we have fun..
like family de feeling.. but now.. all go out with friends..
i hope there's a family day every 2day in a month
but i don think is possible.. but if i die , i hope this will be granted without me..
cause i think my family member need to have communication.
not all family can communicate easy.. eventhoug my family sometime can communicate ..
but is so hard de norhhs..emm.. my father and mother don really give me freedom.
just cause of my brother and sister.. and it make me so sick to stay at home when i'm having my holiday. i don wan.. but i don think it will be realise ..but nevermind..
let my wish go with me through the grave.. i have too much wish lerhhs..
i don wish to say out to them and they give me empty promise.
is the mostly i cant accpet derhhs.. i wan ton with my friend before my op..
please.. haiis.. nevermind.
so much thing to say. nevermind..
weicong .. jiayou! there are so much thing you have to learn.. so gotta stay strong..
i will always with you to pei you.. but i don think you niid barhhs.. but if you say you want.. i'll help you through.. but just helping you like a friend. hees.
i love you~
Thursday, May 28, 2009
today.. 8plus wake up..
bath brush teeth..
and off i go to the hospital.
when to take mrt.
waoah.. so long ..
siian at mrt staring at each other/scenary
then reach NUH le.. ju rush to clinic E..
ahhh~ i was wrong. so i went to another building .
the clinic is for ENT-earnosethroat..
i was so blur don know how to explain to them about wad i suppose to do.
i have no idea.. i just tell them i going for BMT.
all doctor have same reaction. oh/orh.
weird nor.. hahas..
got allergy.. ahhh.. hahas..
the grass name bahia grass..*helicopter grass*-that how children call the grass.
omg.. the doctor first consultation is for $90++
omg.. so expensive.. plus i do around two test..
omg.. cant imagine nor..
then when to buy medicine .. then after that have lunch.
then when back to clinice E. for eye(:
at clinic E i spend arounf 3 hours plus..
lucky it cost not much.
10++.. lazy go buy eye drop.. but my eye was blur i cant see..
i felt scared.
so scared. my tears was fl0wing. but control cause got so many people..
then go take mrt . then go find tiiffany when i reach yio chu kang.
then home sweet home.
i have my fears now.. just for all kind of test just to prepare me for my BMT.
that kind of fear. i never had before.
it's more than a challenge.. it had to make you stay really strong.
and all kind of things..
i'm really really fucking sad&worry
Monday, May 25, 2009
emm.. been at home for more than 4days.
stay at home . sleep eat.. play com.
so boring norh.. i don know wad i should do..
i really feel like going school. but i have no friend in school.
very siian derhhs. i don like the feeling of being at school so lonely.
i hate those feeling . It sux like hell norhh.
No friend derhhs feeling is really not nice.
more friend also not a good thing. cause you wont know
who's th-best~!
i don know.!
smoking has to start quitting ~
medicine has to start eating.
op don know when will start.
ahhhhh~ so stress.
caiying money have to settle it fast!
confuse~!
my life is going to turn to black&white~!
Saturday, May 23, 2009
hey! emm..
i still own caiying money. i don know how i should do..
i was crying and crying just to think wad help can i get.. i don know..
but i'm thinking how i wish my illness is nothing now..
i felt so tiired of taking medicine . and i don't know .
so many things to say..
emmm.. eugene is my friend. and last time derhhs thing will always be the past lerhhs.
i don want to be in the past and waiting for him to say ILOVEYOU!
i don want to wait. cause waiting is so hard. i'll just move forward.
cause i still got to create my future.
losing friend. must well don be friend with everyone.
i feel so lonely. i'm trying my very best to smile on the outside.
but i still cannot .
eventhough i can be very mature and console people.. but to myself
i cant help myself. but talking all those rubbish . is just a normal person can do.
so wad . so wad. i'm just lying to myself that i'm a not bad person that i can help people.
but i feel very sad . 好不开心。好想痛痛哭一场。no friend derhh feeling very tiring.
cause you only can depend on yourself when you are fucking sad. and so wad if you got so many friends right? haiis. i don know.. its so tiring. i will just stay strong till i can .
i will stop telling people whether i have to go hospital.
i will keep my mouth shut. cause is so tiring when people ask.
I'm Sick&Tired of everything!
Friday, May 22, 2009
sorry for not posting for so long..
emm.. feeling sad for the past few weeks..
heehees..eugene message me.. but we're just friends..
did have a little feeling.. but i don think he suit me..
so everything will just like kor kor and mei mei..
alrights. but i dont know whether i can control this feeling..
cause i forget lerhhs.. but nevermind..
everything will be fine(:!
yeah!
sharon grown up lerhhs..
more understanding..
hope all my sadness will go away like after a rain..
waiting for you(:
Monday, May 11, 2009
baobei,me&deardear
me&&baobei
baobei,me&deardear
baobei,me&&darling
three different face.. hahaas:D
baobei ,me&&deardear
mwarksmwarks(:
bleahs:P
sweet smile
so nice derhhs effect(:
bleahs:Pmwarks:*
mwarksmwarksmwarks:***XD
haiis.. time flies..birthday indeed is birthday
baobei ,me&&deardear
mwarksmwarks(:
bleahs:P
sweet smileso nice derhhs effect(:
bleahs:Pmwarks:*
mwarksmwarksmwarks:***XD
haiis.. time flies..birthday indeed is birthday
but i felt happy but i felt i'm leaving..to a far place..
sad mood.. quarrell with baobei..
i don know whether should talk with her again marhhs..
haiis.. 必经we are sister for so lonqq lerhhs..
haiis.. 必经we are sister for so lonqq lerhhs..
i don know wad i should do..
i know is my fault for scolding her.. but yesterday is mother's day..
she should have accompany her mother but not spending with her boyfriend..
i know.. but she got so much time to pei his bf.. why cant she think more..
i'm siick&&tiired of saying her.. i felt very tiired.. i never wanted to scold her..
everything making me so tiired.. i hate this world.. i never want to live anymore..
just sick&&tiired.. haiis.. tears flow..........
i sprain my ankle.....i've never eat my medicine.. i been thinking..
when is my last day in this world.. woohoo..
i don know.. i just hope baobei,darling&deardear know hoe to think..
most worry is baobei.. cause she only like to stay outside all day.. haiis..
i don know wad to do to help her.. but hope if i die lerhhs.. she'll know how to think more.. please she'll think more.. that's more important than my life
takecares... )":
Sunday, May 3, 2009
All thanks to amelia&&aiai.. celebrate my birthday in advance.. i'm happy.. with them around..
but there's always sad mood there.. after celebrate lerhhs.. ju meet deardear&& staceyjiejie ..
so funny.. today see vivian baobei jie at bugis there..
so happy to see her...(:
hope my life will always be full of smile!
hope i can do it!
thanks Amelia&&AiiAii
love you guys loads
love you guys loads
Saturday, May 2, 2009
today.. my ah ma birthday..
hahas..
so funny..
happy.
today don really have mood..
tears flow.. when i think of him
but i will put down him as he wont be able to take the task as i want
my gan to be .. may not need them always.. but i need them . i hope they will be there for me ..
that's th-reason i have not so much gan.. cause i really cannot take the risk
of disown-in them.. cause i will never do that unless that person make me hate
him/her until i cant take it .. and crying everyday for him.
cause i precious my gan alot.. they are precious so no one can replace their place and never will be able to do that!
hope ah ma will live long long
My sweetheart (:
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IMISS huihui YAO SIHUI MUMMY(:(die 1 year plus)still think you're here
Never test my patient. Everyone will have their limit in things
So treat me well i will treat you good. treat me bad,
i will give back twice on how bad is your attitude towards me.
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