Saturday, July 4, 2009
i'm back from hospital..
aunt and big sharon came to visit me to visit me on the 2nd day..
and they bought soya bean drink for me and my sister..
i cannot drink cold de..
and warm de also not nice.. i and my sister wondering can we call mcdonald delivery lor..?
we intend to call .. but we think if we order then the nurse would be here..
then it also unfair to the others cas they wont be able to eat it.. so i don know..
but in the end we didnt order..
oh my goodness the BMA is pain de lor..
but the first time more more pain then this time .. so i'm not so afraid lor..
and before BMA the stupid thing that the doctor have to get 19 tube of blood..
so many lor.. i fucking crazy when i saw this can..? WTH.. but nevermind.. not reaaly pain.. but the stupid doctor wahlao .. he poke the right hand wrist there then the vein go away the take out the needle then poke left hand then got blood come out.. very jiialut lor...
heehees.. must be cheerful and pretend nothing happen.. if not those adult ask hor..
would not be a good idea.. they will ask this ask that then wont have peaceful day..
heehees.. i sound like my parents nag alot barhhs..
not really .. they can be damn fucking nagging sometimes.. and sometimes is okay..
or sometime damn unreasonable or okokay.. is up to their mood barhhs..
but i still cant get my wish to be fulfill..
i'm thinking wad should i do to make my days peaceful...?
why don i exchange something with my freedom..
i wan short live but i wan everday to be damn happy..
and lots of freedom...? can i have that ..
the answer will always be NO~!
cas is hard that my parent give me freedom..
just cas how my parent give my brother and sister freedom then it make us suffer without our freedom~! i more good le lor.. at least i know i shouldnt take advantage~!
maybe i should take my home as hotel.. sometimes just treat them invisble
maybe will make me feel better..
i know my parents are working hard.. but is cas their of their parents..
and if they are kind saving.. who don wan this kind of understanding and ask wad they wan de parent.. i don think i'm able to have them but no choice.. in this kind of world .
there's afew thing that people cannot change , 1st their parent 2nd poor 3rd is illness.
i've no idea.. i don know whether i should stop eating my medicine and don go for BMT,
and end my life early .. will i stop all my suffering? i wish i could just close my eyes and leave this world.. cas i cant find anything that i could live for.. i'm just tiired of everything. my stupid thought come back again..? i don know wad should i do lor..?
i've triied all kinds of ways to smile as sweet as before.. but the smile just never appear..?
did i ever do anything wrong that i've to suffer so much..?
is never a child can ever take it..? i just couldn't be so brave .. i've to pretend that i'm fine infront of those friends that they don know anything about my illness& be damn healthy and damn brave in front of my precious gan.. wad should i do..?
i've never failed to let anyone worry.. only some people cas they know how am i ,
did they know or they know i'm just pretending?
i just hope that i can give up everything. and sleep till my last breath/just end it with injection~!
that would be great lor.. but can i ..? don think so ba....
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