TEARs.....
i don know..
i gonna be very strong without people knowing.
have to.. i'm freaking tiired of adult world.
i've no idea wad the hell they're trying to do.
i don know.. say this cannot say that also cannot..
so wad must i do..
cant i have freedom now to go out with friend..
get my pay and enjoy..
i just cant..
adult say wait till after your op.
adult cant understand my feeling.
i just want to get my mum understanding .
and go out at night.i just cant..
why not ...? i don understand.
scared for wad..
my mother today say something make me so angry is that
she say us must open our brain and think..
i just say some gugu say de words..
i just say to her.. then she ju start saying.
in your life can never do crime.
ya i know.. it affects alot..
but so wad.. at least they're willing to change..
but gugu is different de lor..
i may not understand her so much..
she's abit understanding..
but some words she say i don accept ..
just like that..
ya .. you're a good mother..
but you really know wad we're thinking?
you so sure?
i cant accept..
why parents have to be like this..
ya they care.. they really care..
cause is they give birth for 9 months.. and give birth to us..
i rather be a small child who never grows to become adult..
who always in the lala~land. or i wish i will be in a coma ..
and sleep to death.. that would be great , man.
ya i'm stupid for thinking this kind of thing..


but i really hate people who ''pian xin''
''pian xin'' is something i really cannot take it..
break promise more worse..
i will cry for days.. cause is bad to break promise..
i may not really understand adult .
buf i hope i can die when i'm a child.. at least i die without crying..
i've been crying for those stupid adult..
is it worth it.. i've been thinking..
is something like you really cant understand wad they wan..
this wan cannot that one also cannot..
i still have to keep uncontact with those friends.
omgoodness. i'm feeling more tiired can..
i don know what must i do..
i thought earning money will solve le..
no i'm wrong..
is really wrong..
i tell you , you would rather slack with those friends..
cause they will joke.
not like adult world .. you;ve to pretend to be happy..
ya .. sometimes they treat you really good,, giving you a hug..
ya .. but i cant take their words.. or should i say i cannot believe in their words..


haiis.. i don know..
friend start leaving me..
tha's better.. lucky i make myself hated~!
hahas.
weicong also quite sweet with her girll
so i'm able to be happy..
and left me gan jie niia.
aiiyo..
i don know urhs..some gan don know wad to do..
haiyo..
let thing goes as nature.(:
i wannn go out at night....
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