i don know who i really love..
i think i'm so bitch.
like a slut..
i don know.. i feel that i shouldnt be in this world..
i've no idea wad i'm thinking lor..
i don know..
i sometimes hope zhi an was here.
sometimes hope weicong was here..
when weicong is sad. i hope i was the one there to accompany him.
but i've don have the guts.
i'm so confuse.
i don know who i really love.?
zhi an , weicong?
i don know..
zhi an was long ago..
but i don know..
my head is so painful..
i don think i and weicong peii cause he good at study ..
my studies is so bad.. i don think i can be able to be with him..

zhian
he's too good to me. i don wan him to be like this..
it hurt sometime to make him do something that make him sad..
but to cheer me up.. i don know..

zhi an , weicong
you two is really a guy that i had loved truly ..
never ever wanted to hurt you guys..
but i don know. you two is different..
i've no idea..
who really love me..?
i don know .. my heart i don know whether can place anyone there..
phobia..

wad should i do.? i don know..



my parents.. haiis
i don know.. why .. wad they say ..
is hard to understand.. i may not be a mother..
but they keep saying ask need to open our mind..
and listen .. to be better.
eren't i smart enough.. i may have stupid decision..
but wad i request is not hard to accomplish..
just be your mouth to say yes..
is it so hard? i've no idea..
you may say i'm not smart enough to think wad
my friend truly are..
but at least they understand me .. but not so much as you ..
but so wad..? i want see sunrise.. did you ever say yes..?
NO you didnt..
ya .. i respect you.. but you also sometimes have to give in to us..
i'm not like tiffany..
she may not be able to think..
but i sometime think if i'm like her ..
you will don know wad to do..
i'm mu7ch better now..
i'm more mature..
at least last time i never eat medicine now i got eat..
last time only know how to die.. now wan to treasure
just don want to see you guys criied..
at least i'm much more know how think..
i may say i want watch sunrise with girls.
but

i want to see sunrise with felicia, tiffany , caiying, weicong, zhian, and more..
is this so hard to let you give me?
i think ah keong and silin make you disappointed..
but i know how to understand you , cause if i give birth to a child.
i also will have to learn how to communicate with them..
so i will try to understand de lor..