hey! emm..
i still own caiying money. i don know how i should do..
i was crying and crying just to think wad help can i get.. i don know..
but i'm thinking how i wish my illness is nothing now..
i felt so tiired of taking medicine . and i don't know .
so many things to say..
emmm.. eugene is my friend. and last time derhhs thing will always be the past lerhhs.
i don want to be in the past and waiting for him to say ILOVEYOU!
i don want to wait. cause waiting is so hard. i'll just move forward.
cause i still got to create my future.

losing friend. must well don be friend with everyone.
i feel so lonely. i'm trying my very best to smile on the outside.
but i still cannot .
eventhough i can be very mature and console people.. but to myself
i cant help myself. but talking all those rubbish . is just a normal person can do.
so wad . so wad. i'm just lying to myself that i'm a not bad person that i can help people.
but i feel very sad . 好不开心。好想痛痛哭一场。no friend derhh feeling very tiring.
cause you only can depend on yourself when you are fucking sad. and so wad if you got so many friends right? haiis. i don know.. its so tiring. i will just stay strong till i can .
i will stop telling people whether i have to go hospital.
i will keep my mouth shut. cause is so tiring when people ask.